) if it did, but that's just not the way things roll.
It's also worth a mention that it's not really possible to know someone's sexual orientation from seeing the type of porn in which they perform.
I'm a straight 20-year-old girl who lately can't get the idea out of my head that I wish sooo much that I'd been born a gay boy instead.
I'm not sexually active right now at all (have had 2 partners in the past but nothing for over a year) and it's pretty frustrating because I miss it.
First things first: I'm glad you're here, and you are not alone.
Feeling alienated from your own body is not usually a pleasant feeling, and I can feel your frustration just from reading your question.
Sexual behavior and sexual orientation are not always aligned like that for people.